That is both encouraging and challenging.

Windblown

The goodness that may come from being vindicated is only one fraction of all the goodness God has wrapped up for us. If we do not see vindication this side of eternity, it does not mean no other goodness can be had. The very fact that we have come to know Christ is proof of God’s goodness.

I do not disagree with you on the hope for goodness to be seen. A verse that is one of my all-time favorites is this:

I would have despaired unless I had believed that
I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living.Wait for the LORD;
Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for the LORD.
—Psalm 27:13-14 (NASB – emphasis added)

Seeing the goodness in the land of the living is a promise of God, I believe. But whether that extends to seeing oneself vindicated in this lifetime may be another issue. That has to be left up to God to fulfill in His time, a time that makes all things beautiful.

I do agree that our final vindication is in the life to come. However I think of both Job and David, both imperfect but beloved of God, who pleaded for vindication in this life. I think of Job’s vindication, without it the narrative of Job would be deeply unsatisfying, and untrue.
Vindication lets us know that we are on the right path, that our struggles have not been wholly vain. However unlike your situation in my own history vindication eludes me. My accusers continue to shame me for trying to follow God.
Remember we are like dust and our days are like grass, is it to much to ask to see the goodness of the Lord in this brief time on earth? Windblown